I live with a regret daily. It doesnt eat me up, but when I'm up late because I cant sleep anymore it plauges my thoughts: I wish so badly that i could fix everything I've done to you. Make everything better again. I would trade most anything in my life right now just to be friends again. One of the last things I told you was "I'm really starting to appreciate you _____" and it really was one of the last things because I havent hung out with you since. I dont think you will find your way back this time. I dont think I've ever burnt a bridge with such ferocity and it was like a fire I couldnt control. I just had to watch it go.
Ive stopped buying weed, and I think soon I'll stop smoking. Its an experience for sure, but one I have to grow out of.
I'm glad that even though I thought I was losing a big part of my life, the people that really cared were still there for me. I can't wait to start taking jiu jitsu again with chase.
and as long as I am talking about regrets, why the fuck did I never take my opportunity with you! see you soon anyways :)
"Today I woke up, Younger than I've been in years. Not concerned with what's outside And peers, I don't have any. No one is my equal because I'm the king of rain. Controlling with my moodswings, Throw a thunderstorm your way, way. Drowning girls is a game I play."
You don't say much of anything When questioned of your whereabouts And I just can't see through the evidence It's evident It's right in front of me in black and white and red And I don't believe in much of anything I'm glad I have people I call friends If it was up to me I'd never have to miss you It's for the better in the bitter end I guess you'd know the best You have every right to be This appalled with me Join the club I signed up a long time ago and I know how you feel And when you decked me You left me knocked out on the floor I came to bloodied up, but you weren't around I picked my teeth off the ground like they'd been there before
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I legitimately lost my temper today and I am so embarrassed.
I have never raised my voice at another person or sworn at another person, like
I did today.
The truth is, as confident as I usually act I have one huge
insecurity and it’s like everyone has been playing on that for the past week.
It’s ripping me apart, and I feel terrible most of the time.I know I’m not the greatest friend most of
the time, but really I try.
I feel like I’m stuck with the 10 acquaintances side of the "would
you rather game".
long talks usually turn out well. at least as well as you want them to. i'm super happy being in a relationship with lindsey and it's always the unfortunate case of not being able to please everyone.
i got megan a new holographic cup (a badass one at that) so i think she's ok with me right now. right?
lindsey's on another hate michael trip, but what's new. she'll get over it. i know you're reading this, and i know you will.
i'm really going to miss you tyler when you leave. but i know it's for the best. you need to live your life, just listen to the T.I. song when you need inspiration.
dalton, i solemnly swear never to aid in teabagging you again. in fact i'm going to help you teabag chase when he gets here to make it up to you.
my car is now flashing the "check engine" light and that's realllly serious. i'm expecting the worst so when i have to drop two grand or so on a new transmission i'm going to be poor for a while. or at least economically uncomfortable.
